reconciling with God

TUHAN BENER-BENER KAYAK PUZZLE. aneh dan membingungkan.

weekend kemarin gue retret kom. Pemuda Gereja gue. selama retret, dan beberapa hari sebelumnya, gue mulai memikirkan untuk berdamai dengan Tuhan. gue merenung, reminiscing. gue menyadari klo gue kalah. gue mentok. ga ada jalan keluar lagi. gue mulai berpikir untuk mulai dari nol, seperti dulu. seperti yang gue tulis di postingan sebelumnya, if that's Your only way, i guess i'm going back to the start.

hari ini, ga disangka, ga dinyana, ga diduga, gue terima telepon, besok ada panggilan untuk tandatangan kontrak kerja dan handover tugas.

well, Tuhan itu aneh, nyebelin, egois, membingungkan dan humoris. Biarpun begitu, makasih ya Tuhan.

Point O

God is like a puzzle. He's complicated.

First He gives you everything; joy, fame, friends, new things, money, luck and more. But when you're already on the top of your life, He's starting to take it a bit and you don't realize it. And then BANG! you have nothing. He put you, push you, keep you in point zero. He forces your ego.

Well, if that's Your only way God, i guess i am going back to the start.

Quote of the day

The boys played about in the court; on the bosom of the youngest sparkled the gold star that the Tree had worn on the happiest evening of his life; but that was past, and the Tree was past, and the story also, past! past! For all the stories must come to an end, some time and other.

The Fir-Tree - H. C. Andersen

Company vs. Job Seeker

gue menemukan link (sini) yang isinya mengenai kebiasaan-kebiasaan perusahaan yang reseh dalam menangani pelamar kerja. dan isi artikelnya bener banget. jadi, bagi para pencari kerja silahkeun dibaca dan dimaki hehe.

Having no regard for the candidate's time. From last-minute cancellations, without apology or acknowledgement of the inconvenience, to not paying attention in the interview, some employers act like their time is the only time that matters. Most candidates go to a lot of trouble to prepare for an interview -- reading up on the company, taking time off work, and often traveling--and their time should be respected too.

(gue ga ngerti deh sama perusahaan, bilang kita disuruh dateng pukul 2 gitu misalnya. okelah, untuk menunjukan etika kerja yang baik, kita nyampe di perusahaan tersebut pukul 1.30. terus disuruh nunggu. pengertian dong kita. waktu udah menunjukan pukul 2. sperti yang dijanjikan sebelumnya, seharusnya mereka keluar dong, ini ga. kita masih harus disuruh nunggu lagi. maksud gue, hellooo nyadar ga sih klo dari awal mereka punya janji temu pada pukul 2??)

Refusing to share their salary range, but asking you for yours. Employers know roughly how much they're willing to pay; there's no reason not to share that info, other than that they're hoping to get you for a lower price. But that's lame: If they lowball you now and you figure out later that you're underpriced for the market, they risk losing you over it. They should tell you the range they expect to pay and put an end to all the drama and coyness.

(negosiasi gaji. ngeri men. salah-salah ngomong, bisa timbul pertanyaan baru. salah-salah ngomong kesempatan kerja di situ bisa ilang. salah-salah ngomong, hidup kita untuk beberapa bulan ke depan bisa pas sengepas-ngepasnya. kenapa sih mereka ga blak-blakan aja gitu bilang nominalnya? beres kan? ga perlu nego-nego lagi. take it or leave it.)

Misrepresenting the work. Interviewers who make the job sound more glamorous or downplay less attractive aspects of the job--such as long hours--are guaranteeing they'll end up with a bitter employee. Truth in advertising works to everyone's advantage, because candidates who won't thrive in the job, or the culture, can self-select out before they become your disgruntled employees.

(untungnya belum pernah ngalamin. tapi pernah denger cerita temen, kerja rodi, bosnya juga ga tau diri. akhirnya dia minta naik gaji karena gajinya sekarang ga pantas dengan job desk yang teret jungkir balik. bosnya ga ngasih kenaikan gaji. akhirnya temen gue cabut. gue tanya kenapa, dia bilang, dibanding gue jadi penyakitan.)

Not sharing their timeline. Employers have some idea of whether they'll be getting back to candidates in a week or a month. There's no reason not to share that information, and it can be agonizing on the job seeker's side to have no sense of the timeline the employer will be moving on -- and yet many employers keep job seekers uninformed.

(well. BENER BANGET!! jangan terlalu ngarep banget sama satu perusahaan. walopun hari ini baru diinterview, tetep aja nyebar lamaran ke perusahaan-perusahaan lain. and btw, this paragraph leads to the next.)

Not notifying candidates that they're no longer under consideration. This is both common and inexcusably rude. Candidate are often anxiously waiting to hear an answer--any answer--and end up waiting and waiting, long after a decision has been made. It's about simple respect and courtesy (and it just doesn't take that long to email a form letter).

(speechless. inilah dilema mungkin mayoritas para pencari kerja. kesombongan terbesar suatu perusahaan pencari kerja. apa susahnya sih ngirim email? dari semua perusahaan yang pernah gue apply, cuma 1 perusahaan yang concern dengan perasaan pelamarnya. waktu itu gue abis tes, dia bilang akan ngabarin kurang dari seminggu lagi. dan bener. kurang dari seminggu dateng email mengkonfirmasi klo gue gagal. salut gue sama perusahaan ini, dan btw nama perusahaannya CNOOC.)

well. kita memang butuh pekerjaan. kita memang yang posisinya dibawah. tapi tolonglah para perusahaan, harap punya etika dalam proses rekrutmen.

what is heaven?

bagi gue, seperti saat ini...

orang tua pergi latihan paduan suara dan acara gereja dari sore hingga malam. gue di rumah sendirian. online. buka youtube, open-this-link-to-the-new-tab, singing out loud, dancing like crazy. stalking on facebook orang-orang (devil laugh), adore their great awesome life.

speaking of awesome life on facebook, gue punya temen. gue seneng deh ngeliat foto-foto dia dan cewenya. they're such a COOL couple. both of them are painter. both of them like photography and they're so creative. they seem really enjoy their relationship, as a lover, bestfriend and brainstorming and creative partner. kayaknya betah gitu gue ngeliatin foto mereka satu-satu walopun jumlahnya sampe ratusan.

anyway. jikalau. anda. sedang. sendirian. di rumah atau di kamar. putarlah youtube dengan volume besar-besar. search amy winehouse. meen, lagu-lagunya sangat amat menenangkan sekali. highly recommend. ibaratnya klo di facebook, agnes like this (thumb).

shit. my parent's home. well, im going back to earth. shit.

p.s. noordin m. top terkepung. semoga bener-bener dia. semoga bener-bener tertangkap..

hi, i am gollum.

i got PMS. i think so...

God i HATE it. i feels like there is a crack old woman inside me who love to kill her kitten with her teeth and friggin damage brain; and she keep crawling find the way out of me makes me want to kill everybody, EVEN MY BEST FRIEND, if there's any besties, SHIT.

GOD. this is miserable... i keep thinking the negative way. keep the anger burning in my head. feel fuckingly worthless and useless and SUPER stupid and ugly.

this is waaaaaay more miserable. there's no mood food, no weight gain, no hair loss, no acne, no oily face. but all those shits gathering together make a group of anger and envy.

oh yes, i am transforming into Gollum.
shit. shit. shit.

i think i am away to my friggin cage now. save myself and the others. RAWR!!