inspiring email

got this wonderful email from my manda. it tells us what should we do regularly. i find this list is simply inspiring, so i wanna share y'all, with a lil'bit editing from me.

well, have a nice day folks! ~muach

1. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile
2. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
3. Sleep for 7 hours.
4. Read more books than you did in last year.
5. Dream more while you are awake.
6. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
7. Drink plenty of water.
8. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
9. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
10. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
11. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
12. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
13. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
14. Smile and laugh more.
15. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
16. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
17. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
18. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
19. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about. Don't compare your partner with others.
20. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
21. Forgive everyone for everything.
22. What other people think of you is none of your business.
23. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
24. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
25. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
26. Do the right thing!
27. Call your family often.
28. Your inner most is always happy. So be happy.
29. Each day give something good to others.

semangat ekstensi (?)

saya mulai ragu. mulai mikir.

apa tujuan saya ikut kuliah ekstensi?

biar dapet gelar S1?
biar naik pangkat?
biar naik gaji?

biar orang tua saya bangga?

atau.
hanya bosan dengan kehidupan yang terus membuat saya bertambah tua, sehingga saya mencari pelarian kehidupan yang bisa membuat saya merasa muda?


saya mulai capek.

capek pulang kerja harus kuliah lagi dan nyampe rumah jam diatas jam 10 malam dan besok harus berangkat subuh lagi.
capek tiap bulan memotong uang saya dengan jumlah yang lumayan untuk bayar kuliah, padahal seharusnya saya bisa membeli laptop impian.
capek harus ngerjain tugas, nyari bahan dan belajar apalagi kalo lagi ujian.
capek karena ga punya waktu lagi untuk nongkrong-nongkrong atau bermain-main dengan homer dan aksan dan oik.

masih penting ya S1 itu?
tailahya.

sama saja.

aku tidak lagi bisa membedakan tangis dan tawa.


aku menangis dalam tawa.
aku tertawa dalam tangisan.


air mata tawa,
air mata tangisan,
aku rasakan sama saja.

bitterness simplicity

After all, all I have in my mind
Is just silence all around
A thousand times I have tried to find
Pieces of dreams. visions and sounds
And then I pray for better days

After all, all I have in my heart

Are the pieces, that I found

Shades of blue, swimming in the moon

Counting the stars all around

I say a prayer for better days

Do you know how it is without anyone

Do you know anyone?

Don't let it go

Never forget that when

I think of youYou're not alone

Do you know how it is without anyone

Do you know anyone at all?

- taken from here -

ramalan malam itu

ngopi doeloe Bandung
2 November 2008
22.00 WIB


"aku belum bisa baca. karena kamu belum bertindak apa-apa."
"yaah. kalo cowonya aja deh. apa yang dia rasain gitu..."
"ga bisa. belum kebaca."
"..."
"seperti yang aku bilang tadi, kamu harus merubah diri kamu. jangan menghindari spotlight. tunjukin eksistensi kamu. tunjukin kalo kamu ada. tunjukin kalo kamu suka sama dia."
"... tapi gimana?"
"yaah... hal sederhana aja. coba ajak dia ngomong. aku yakin nih, pasti kamu ga pernah ngajak dia ngobrol kan? bahkan untuk nimbrung-nimbrung aja kamu jarang banget. iya kan?"
"... iya sih."
"udah. sekarang kamu harus lebih pede lagi. just be yourself."

dalam hati, "tapi gimana caranya?"

i think i like you,

but (again) i'm desperately clueless.

i don't have any fuckin idea what to do.

yea, i'm just bad at it.

a wishful thinking

di saat kegalauan memuncak,
di saat kecemburuan menghampiri,
di saat ketidakpastian melanda,
di saat ketakutan menghinggapi,
di saat kesedihan melingkupi,

aku pun mulai membakar sebatang nikotin lagi.

tampaknya aku benar-benar suka kamu.